Testimony Tuesday: August 2, 2011

I just want to make this one short and sweet.

I am about a month away from starting graduate school. And while almost everyone is excited for me, I have to admit that I am a little nervous. My current job is unstable with wavering hours. I already have about $30,000 worth of undergraduate loans and will almost double them by the time graduate school is done. Plus, I am not sure whether or not I will actually use this degree to get to where I want or need to go. Additionally, my passion for music urges me that there is nothing else I can possibly do with my life unless music is involved. My fear is wasting my time. When people ask me what I want to do with my graduate degree, all I can do is shrug and somehow get a little upset and anxious because I feel like I cannot provide a good enough response.

So why is this a testimony? I am writing this now to remind me of where I am now and encouraging myself that I will have peace in my future. I will have financial stability. I will have security for my future generations. I will have sustainable income. I will be a professional songwriter. I will live up to my potential. These are all far from the case of my future status as a broke college grad with a part-time job that will not allow for me to live anywhere near comfortably. I may not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I know there is one. There is faith. I pray all my paths are led straight and I do not take anymore detours to defer me from reaching my goals and dreams.

"Speak over yourself. Encourage yourself." At times, that is all you have and that is all you need.

I just want to remind everyone that once I get to where I need to go, there is no stopping me. Just like there is no stopping you from your way. There can't be a testimony without a test.

Peace.

~L~